Rei Rei & Dev Dev

Happy new year 2011!

2011-05-19T00:25:00.005+08:00

Had a great time with darling and friends coundown to 2011! Happy new year to everyone who I know! (:

It was our first time spending our first Christmas’s and New year’s eve together, and it shall always be the most memorable day as long as we’re together. On the other hand, sadly, I simply have to work on both Christmas and New year!!!!!wtf!!!!!

We were quarreling on some issues and partially got to do with me being too emotional and Insensible, saying things that I should had not say it but thankfully we’re both fine now! haha… My darling teared just now!! To be honest, I’m attracted to your pair of seductive eyes when i see your tears rolled down your cheek, at the same time, I felt sad and guilty as well.): I did wrong to make you feel sad and make you feel so hurt on the first day of New year, I’m really sorry darling!): But I truly know that our relationship wont turn any sour but it will get better and better each day! Cuz you’re simply the best BF! AND we cherished and care for each others very much! (:

Darling I’m know my mistakes and i do hope that you will get to see my changes and I hope I’ll never make you feel this way again, cuz it’s really heartbreaking to see you tearing in front of me, I felt really touched by your actions and I know I you’re the one who I wanna live with forever! (: I love you!!!!!

TODAY IS MY BELOVED DARLING'S BIRTHDAY!!!

2011-05-19T00:22:00.003+08:00

The BBQ just ended yesterday, it was quite successfully done I guess despite over some unpleasant comments being made by my friend but still, they’re no longer matter to me anymore because I know my BF is the best to me!! (:

Honestly speaking, I was so excited about the BBQ solely because it was my first REAL boyfriend!!! There’s many little things which I really felt very special and different compared to all the past lousy relationships i ever had! I felt like I’m a little fortunate girl being doted and blessed to have such a wonderful bf! Love you!!!(:

It was my first time getting a comforter and a pillow for my bf as his’s birthday gift, and i know he likes the present that i bought for him cuz we went out to buy together! hahaha!!! cool right darling?? lol. Strictly speaking I met almost all his’s friends and relatives, these are the things which makes me feel proud of myself thou is kinda weird but I WILL STILL REMAIN TO FEEL IT THIS WAY and the reason being because I had never have a chance last time to feel it this way but now I do!!! Thank you DARLING!!!(:

Right now, I’m looking forwards to our first bangkok trip together!!! freaking excited!! yea yea yea!! Darling you’re the best and you’re the only one in my heart! so dont worry about anything else alright! I’ll standby you whenever you need me!!! I love you!(:

Byebye i’m gonna play my sims3 now.

Harlow!

2011-05-19T00:21:00.001+08:00

Harlow Reiko Tay is here!

There are many little things which i wanna blog about! 6 more days and YES WE’re gonna be 3 months officially together!(:

A few things occurred in August, first of all, I’m gonna start my new job very soon, the name of my work place is called ‘The studio’ & ‘Future stage’-those are my favorites working environment. I’m gonna start off as a part-timer, earning like $50/per day for the first 1-2 months. Although the salary wasn’t really that attractive to me BUT, it’s a great start for me to achieve the goal in my life. (: Secondly, I’m helping out darling to pack his stuff because he’s moving house to Palm Gardens. For the past 3 months, we’ve been seeing each others every single day, and I’m not sick of seeing him everyday!!! AND HE’S TOO, I KNOW!!!(:

I assumed that his’s mom has already accepted me for who i am, but still, there’s some doubts in me which unable for me to assure of the situation now. Let’s hope things get better along the way, BUT one thing I’m assure, “MY DARLING LOVE ME very much!!! (:

Ha ha ha..DEVLIN MOHYONG(:

2011-05-19T00:20:00.005+08:00

This special entry is only for my special darling’s DEVLIN to read. But i’m not gonna tell him that i’m back to gossip about him, even though he has been grumbling about why didnt I blog about him nowadays! Let’s him find out himself. hee hee hee.(:

Day passes fast, I’ve known him for 2 months 4 days. My feelings are getting stronger and stronger each day! And I’ve became his official Gf on the 12 of AUG!!! HOO-RAY!!! To be honest, I’ve never expected that good thing will fall on me. For the past 2 months,we’ve been meeting up every single day, I can truly feels his love and care for me, he dotes me and take good care of me! We’ve done many many things together, one thing that i will never forget is how he celebrated my birthday for me!! The best birthday gift I had ever received!(:

He’s soft, he’s gentle, he’s nice and he’s great! If anybody were to ask me to describe my bf, I will definitely say ” MY BF IS THE BEST!” I simply like the way we’re now, I really hope we can maintain for long in this relationship.

He had never scolded me before, he had never shouted or yelled at me before. He’s always 24/7 nice. From the start, I’m really scare that he’s only crushed on me not anything else more than that. I appreciated everything that he had done for me, nth much for me to complain or to rant about. Hope everything can goes smoothly for us and hoping that you will be the guy that i’m gonna married to.

I’m waiting for the days to arrive and i will be proud to tell everyones that, ” we’re so loving not because we’re in our honeymoon period, BUT, because we do know how to cherish and love each others.” (:

I love devlin mohyong. (: 12 of august 2010.

I love my DADDY AND MUMMY!!!!!

2009-12-24T02:08:00.004+08:00

Daddy ,I'm sincerely sorry. I will not commit the same mistake again.

I'm sorry for making u upset over me,i'm sorry that i'm not mature enough to think.

But,You're always my best Daddy!!!

Ever since when i was born out into this world, my daddy is someone whom i respected the most. And no matter what i do,he will always stood by me,comfort me,listening to my grumbles and he has never complain.Instead he will use a very nice way to tell me and make me understand. I remembered very clearly that whenever when we're on our way home,he will piggy me up the stairs till we reaches our doorstep.That's my daddy! Whenever i make any decision,he will be the first one to stand by me and give me his fullest support.

This time round i have really disappoint him and let him down.sorry dad. I promise u that i will change and never let u down anymore. Have faith in me and i will do u proud.Please mark my words.(:

Reality is the certainty.

2009-12-18T04:33:00.000+08:00

Just back from the Bbq.It’s was really a hilarious night and it has been a long while ever since we girls enjoyed so much despite of all unpleasant things. Guess everyone enjoyed themselves,but most importantly,the main role is still my dearest sis.(:

In life there’s always up and down.I believed that everyone of us would have lots of doubt in our mind,issues and questions that we grapple with,from married to having children to aging to death.Ever since the very first day you were born to this world,what actually changes the whole you,and why is there such changes made? Of course anyone of us could have something to say,something to comment on. But there still seemed to be no clear answer.

The very first thing when u open up your eyes in the morning,you know you have a list of things awaiting for you to do.Its sound as if we’re half-asleep,doing things we automatically think we have to do.Our life is just a list of events we had to get through.One step at the time until the last thing on the list was crossed off. Living in this pragmatic world becomes a basic routines of what people usually does.It’s an never ending cycle.Could just anyone speed down their steps,inhale a deep breathe,take a good look at our surrounding and cherish the people around us and you will realized that you’d actually missed out lots of good thing.Literally,you will find the true joys of living.

As we live on,you can actually be more involved in your life and that despite the pain we had surrounded us.I assumed that everyone in this world included me,we live for sake of love,ain’t it?

Alright,that’s for all. Goodnight.

you’re the one that taught me everything,

you’re the one that makes me feel what’s love all about,

you’re the one that i know i’ll be safe and sound,

And you’re the one that makes me smile.

The blissfulness

2009-12-07T03:42:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling so exhausted.-6th dec,auspicious date.

A rather busy month for me i can say.There were so many couples getting married this month.From what I've encountered so far, isn't marriage supposedly to be a joyful occasion,a decision that make an impact throughout your whole life.But it can also be a meaningless and worthless marriage. Out of curiosity,part of me i would wish to know how many people in this world will really treat it so preciously? And why is there a huge increases of people filing for divorces?

2007-09-16T02:32:00.000+08:00

Old things are passed away,behold,all things have become new.We are not to look back but to forge ahead in our new life,just as if the past hadn't happened at all.Somehow,am one who cant really let go of the past and carry on with my life.just God damn.I'm stuck in the past.
Whenever we encounter failures,we are to face our pain squarely and deal with them honestly.These things have happened to us.They are just part of our history.We are not to deny them,gently healed the memory so that what had been a gaping,open would was turned into a healed scar.Some pain remained,as we learn to see things in different perspective but not to live in the past.But the fear of the memory left,when people know or suspect that there will be unpleasant memories or feelings to deal with,their habit will probably be to try avoid doing so.
As times goes by,we grown day by day.I realised that all the past I'm being such a demanding girl and someone who wants thing to go my way.I don't know was it too late to realise by then.But hoping that the decision I've chosen was right.

To who you're,i cant ask any much from you.Just to let you know,I'm really sorry for the past i treated you.

2007-09-07T16:17:00.000+08:00

2007-08-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

What's Player and what's true love is?
-something which i just couldn't get it right.

2007-08-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

It's the old usual self of me waking up at 5 plus in the noon.
The weather have been raining for the past few days.I spent my day sitting by my window watching the incredible deep blue sky,watching the rain splashing to and fro.The ambiance's set in nicely.It really breathtaking especially after a great heavy downpour and it really makes one feels good.

2007-08-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

My finals blog is done.Changes no more pls.kinda sick of it.Zzzz...
(ps: Really got to thanks jialin and guo rong for the editing to my blog.)
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I do not know why do i have this bad ominous that something bad would just happen to my leg.Just praying that every thing's could just be fine and hopefully it's recover well and grow back the new skin and no scars left.gosh.oh god oh.

Well,day after days,i began to felt so sick at home but I've completely no idea of where to go or what to do.The only time when i don't feel bored which is usually the night time.As all my friends were soundly asleep,it always left me who couldnt get on sleep.And I really got to thanks those nocturnal mammals like me,for chit-chatting on the phone with me or rather msn-ing.(:
Gladly,i had been chatting with my peter pan on phone for two days,it just only two day and yet it can really make one felt something is amiss if that whoever did not chat on the phone with that somebody.(: See,that's how we human get used to things so quickly. ha Ha..

Had a hearty conversation's last night with my god bro,bryant,was pretty shiok.And i gained something which i could never get it from the textbook woot!We eventually talked about the past experiences that he'd gained for his past 30 yrs of life.He really impressed me off. I shall not elaborate more on it.But I'm just Proud to say that, I've met someone like him and honour to have him as my god brother.(:
Loves bro!!thanks for all your needs and care from you when i'm in-need,I grateful to all little things which you had done for me.I'm really loss at words but just a millions of appreciation that comes right from the bottom of my heart!(:

It getting rare and rare to find someone as good as him.thou singapore ain't big but it just a small dot on the map.lol.what to do,just pray then!!

yeayea!

2007-08-15T01:49:00.000+08:00

My new blog skin is finally done.A clap for myself. &
-thanks jialin for touching up my blog.A clap for her too.(:

After all the countless hours of re-doing my blog gonna drive me crazy..YEA~yEA! My blog is finally done!Felt so like it compare to all of my previous blog skin.wahaha!!
Had solitary confinement for the past one week.Not that I was grounded or anything just that I've got myself a GOLDEN leg, doctor advice me to stay at home and take good care of it.lalala..Just thought of slacking at home could be a best idea not to do anything.But the problem started when I'm just simply too free and had nothing better to do.Eventually,what i did was to SLEEP AND SLEEP AND SLEEP AND SLEEP.JUST FUCKING SLEPT FOR THE WHOLE AFTERNOON.And that was just a small part of it,the best thing is that I'd actually been doing this continuously for the whole damn week.Could you just imagine what kind of luxury life am having?? hahaha...

I dont feel like going back to the polyclinic to have my leg dressing.Just troublesome only.I SWEAR i will never take ride from bike.chee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BONG!~

That's all for today entry.Goodnite.

I WANT WANT!!

2007-08-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

I wanna back to Ma maison!
I wanna back to school!!
I wanna hang outside with my gfs!
I want my cigs..and my choc!!!! arghh...
I dont wanna stay at home!!!wth..

Thanks people for visiting me.thanks!love ya.(:

It's raining heavily now,listen to umbrella..lalala..

2007-08-11T01:48:00.000+08:00

I misses you lots.

2007-08-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

Waiting and just waiting.

why are you always like this? why cant you just give me an answer?I'm stuck in relationship once again.Knowing what's the outcome would be yet i insists on doing it so.You may find me being stubborn but,persistent is all what i could do.Feeling so emptiness.

I'm just a girl who lost herself in love.

I'm survived

2007-08-09T07:45:00.000+08:00

Gone for some period of time.Backie.(:

Misfortune had fall upon me.But on other term,should i count myself lucky too?
Fell down from a friend's bike,and landed myself in a bad condition.But still,thanks god my face wasn't disfigure.This few days i had been grounded at home,can't walk much.
Time to reflect on myself and some other stuffs.My days had been monotonous.What could be the outcome if a tiny possibilities were taken into consideration.Would i still be landed myself on this state? I'd doubt so.

I'm gonna lie to myself no more,I'm serious this time round. I'll fight for my love and not gonna regret.Been pondering with some thoughts,the unknown answer is what i wanted to know.I took up the courage and smsed him,the answer i got back is,somehow,yea just like it.Thou it wasn't a complete answer but still, ha ha...just like it la..I always thought i could put down everything and just move on with my life but,i just can't.I heard of this phrase,when someone is at the plight of fear,the first thought he or she will think of will be someone mean lots to them.yea,you're the one i thought of. (:

Sweetness yet bitter.lalala...

To you: At least you let me know that I'm not just a passer-by in your life.
Girlfriends: Thanks you girl for keeping me accompany,i'm deeply appreciated.(:

2007-07-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

There's many little obstacles in our life which we have to go throught.Life feels like a practice for a test that's never going to happen.Everyday of life is just an event of what we're going throught.Sometimes,we may find ourself embittered by those fucked up things which people does.At the moment of rage,the reaction of a human does is to treat back the same way as how others treated us.It may contain insensible,childish thinking without fittering it with analysis of both sides.Subsequently,we find ourself being too impulsively and foolish,regreted of the things we had done.It'll be too late by then.

2007-07-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

yeayea...

Moron and me.(:

2007-07-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

Thanks everyone.Deeply appreciated.(:

2007-07-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

Had not been going out with them for ages,eversince when i was sec 2?should be...But afterall the feelings was none better,uhuh.Reached lot around 4 and we got seperated.lol.Shall not elaborate more on it.

2007-07-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

Totally no mood yesterday.just suck.
Somebody even cried for me,whoo woot~~!!
Birthday comes once a year,so even i missed out this year,I would still have it the next year.So it doesn't matter much to me, just deceiving myself only.wtf.
Even my family don't care much either,just a normal day what! whatever..
Anyway thanks you girls, the Ktv was great yeayea but hope i did not affected you girls mood.

Simply loves those photos.(:

2007-07-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

Just just just

2007-07-06T04:17:00.000+08:00

Just just just....

Just an ordinary day.
Oh yea, met my sucker today,yeayea..And learnt something new from him.

"y-m-m-p-t-u-c-t, your mom mom bla bla bla-jiggerly puff!!"

Holy mama!!

You're always my sucker man!!(:

14 days come quick!! I'm just freaking worried...

4 more days and i'm Fully seventeen.(:

2007-07-05T04:14:00.000+08:00

Silents don't mean anything, it only brings sadness.

Got my hair trimmed.yea yea.(:
Saw this Hello kitty car when i was on my way back,pretty cool and nice.ANd know what??The owner's of this car was actually a Male.
-10 dont come please.Just let it pass and shall begin on the 11.

2007-07-03T16:00:00.000+08:00

I'm all sick,fever,flu,cough just came all over to me.Pain all over my whole body.Just really felt like i'm dying soon.uhhh....

Cant even sleep well last night,tossing around on my bed thinking of every possibilities i could do.Watching at the time, yea it past just damn slowly.I'm pondering the possibilites of what could have been if one tiny choice was made differently but somehow my life are filled with infinite possibilties.

2007-07-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

Last went K-box on sat.I only took two photos in k-box.the rest is all ANg JIA LIN the retarded who went k-box JUST to take photo only.what the hell man!shall upload those pic tomorrow when i'm back from k-box.

2007-07-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

Met my girlfriends and all just now.Feeling ain't no better.Everyone thought i was being strong, the reality was i'm faking it.I guess i had indulged myself too deeply into this, too deeply that i couldn't get rid off.I just want to get rid of this anguish.God damn god.Just arghh.

Things that i gonna do..
-I will soon recover and back to the my oldself.
-Just concentrate on my course.
-Not to bother by anything.
-Meeting my Aunty apple and the rest for K-box and sing away all troubles!!

Lastly, just a message to you if you're reading this.

I maybe insane to do all those things that irritated you.I'm sorry. I'll treat you as my friend still, and move on my life without your presence. But i just wanna thanks you for being a special one in my life that i will always remember.No doubt you might forgotten me one day, but it's alright.I still hope that you could get rid your barriers and start a new relationship.You will find your Ms righty one day.Dont be afraid to love anyone,you might not know what will be the outcome.I may not be the lucky one to have your love, but others yea.
I'll be fine and back to the Reiko that you first met.(:
All the best to you,and take care.

Sis, i'm not trying to cover myself with a mask by showing you that i'm alright.Just that i do not want you to worry for me.Your burden is loads enough.By doing that at least i could make myself feel better.(:

will the time just heal the wound in my heart but not you?

2007-07-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

29.June.2007

Unfathomable love.
I can never get this right,never.

I hadn't been able to cry completely because it hadn't seemed real.Now it was all coming out, coursing through my body in painful waves, i cried, crying so hard that i couldn't breath.Now,through,every ounce of strength was gone and all that was left was a big pool of sobbing.I didn't feel any better.Each sob didn't release the pain,it brought more of it.

It's true that you did not do anything to me, but you hurts me literally.All along have you ever spare a thought for me at all? Doing things as you like and pleased.Have you ever cherish me?why cant you just give me a chance to explain myself.You're so cruel.Yea,yea i lied to you,what i said was all lied.All the while I'm just an actor in front of you!Get it? Every thing's is finally over.All along the trust and faith i had in you, were all taken away.A moment of folly that brought me into this consequence.I have thought everything clear,i will not get involve in your life, as what you mentioned,you go your way and I'll go mine.Yea,I will just take it as we had never knew each others before.I will not hate you,no point doing that.I'd gonna just move on with my things.Life.Everything.

All of this had shaped my mood.I was sad and angry.Completely,totally angry.It spilled me through until i was calm.It dampened every other emotion until i felt nothing else.My anger was mingled with outrage, hurt, indignation, pain.All of this were blotted out by this anger.

And I'm not going back to anybody.Remain as single.
just an ordinary day..

(PS: hey people,I'll be fine.don't worry yea.
Don't ask me out please, I just wish to stay at home.Sorry.)

was everything just too late?

2007-06-29T03:29:00.001+08:00

I will just wait patiently for you to tell me your answer. (:

After a long period of time,in the end i still made a U-turn back to you.I felt so guilty.I didn't realise the good of you, you torelated my demandng attitude,my temper etc...What i did was to complaint and complaint about every little things about you.SORRY pie.):
I know i did not cherish you in the first place, i made you lost confident in this relationship,was everything just too late?I just really want you back.Regain to the past of how we used to be.All to blame on myself for being blind for so long, i should have realised it long ago.
I'd expected that this will be the answer that you would give me.I dont mind.I really hope i could regain your trust and confidence,that's is all i wanted now.Forget the past relationship and start a fresh.I will prove to you by my actions.Hope you could just give me a chance to amend it.I'm serious and i really mean it.

Cherish the loves one beside you and dont take them for granted.Things wont always turn out to be so smoothly, it wont go your way.And with this, i'd learnt to treasure you even more, i wont just simply let you slip away from me again.I regreted what i've done.I'm sincerely sorry.

(ps: Gonna meet that dumb ass for breakfast man!7:30 am!Just fucking early man!God please wake me up!)

just await to receive from your call on sat!!I'm waiting!!!(:

2007-06-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

It really makes one feel great,especially after a long hearty chat with someone whom you had been so long together. You were my healing theraphy,i supppose.(:

I'd truly appreciated for the past one hour plus of conversation with you, thou it wasnt long,but i can feel all your loves and cares!It allowed me to speak-out my heart truly.As what you said,the elations just set in nicely,yea yea...boo!
The tears we shed and the things we confessed,it gives a taste of sweetness that come from an inner's heart of oneself.The ultimate of a friendship dont come just easy,it being built up day by day and all trusts and efforts put in.I'd cherish the friendship between us, after that night it gave me a clear picture of what really happening all this while. And i wanna thanks those 'good ones' here for their great great help.just what the hell man!..
Anyway,thanks alot, my dear fishy.(:

Your presence coloured my life.wink*

Needing a moment

2007-06-25T02:26:00.000+08:00

Live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I long to touch you to hold you in my arms
but I cannot for your heart belongs to another so,
I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can hold you in my arms and say,
"I love you"

Just you.(:

2007-06-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

* Life.

2007-06-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

I believed that everyone of us would have lots of doubt in our mind,issues and questions that we all grapple with,from happiness to aging to having children to death. Of course anyone of us could have something to say,something to comments on. But there still seemed to be no clear answer.

Everyday of life is just a normal day,a basic routines of what people usually does. It's a never ending cycle.Life had become a list of events we had to get through. One step at the time until the last thing on the list was crossed off. We do not know what will comes next. Most of us walk around as if we're sleepwalking. We really don't experience the world fully,because we're half-asleep,doing things we automatically think we have to do. And facing death changes all that? Could just anyone speed down their steps,inhale a deep breathe,slowly,look around at the surrounding and you will realised that you'd actually missed out lots of beautiful scenery,and the people around you. Literally,you will find the joys of living.

As we live on,everyone knows they're going to die,but nobody believes when will the time comes. If we did,we would do things differently. But there's a better approach. To know you're going to die,and to be prepeared for it at anytime. The way you can actually be more involved in your life while you're living. And that despite the pain we had surrounded us,saddness wasn't mandatory twenty-four hours a day,laughter was permissible. Once you learn how to die,you learn how to live.
The loving relationship we have,the universe around us,we take things for granted. When someone knows his time is almost done,he is drawn to nature like he's seeing it for the first time.We live only once,do cherish the people around you especially your loves one.(:"

Adapter some from,tuesday with morrie.

Just cute only.

2007-06-13T18:46:00.001+08:00

Huiyu's dearest bro,Javan.(:sweety pie